ねむたい(⁠ᗒ⁠ᗩ⁠ᗕ⁠)

I've been so sleepy all day long  everytime I'm having my PMS it's the same old shit

And today I went through some awful stress by not being able to buy my lunch and being almost 30 minutes late for work because they took so long with my order at McCafe 

Then since I didn't get to buy my lunch from usual I decided to eat at McDonald's and they got my order wrong and my Sprite was tasting like plain sparkling water 

At least I'm looking cute today ww

I'm not fully happy with my casual make tho. I need new lenses and if I get myself used to wake up earlier maybe I can start wearing lashes everyday again  The thing is, I don't seem like I can get out of bed earlier than 7:30AM... Been trying since Monday and failing hard at it 

Anyways I'm wearing the sebon star I traded from あけいちゃん today 

I need to wear my silver sebon star more often because I'm very biased towards the golden ones... Or with gold in general, as I'm not the biggest silver enjoyer ww

I'm a bit anxious regarding studying for that admission test but I guess I have no choice but to give it a shot  I gotta stop playing and fooling around and get serious about my future for good. But I just found out that even if I pass the test I only get the job after 1-2 years??? That's crazy, I'm not sure if I can afford two more years in poverty 

I need to get a good life asap if I want to leave this shared house, learn how to drive and afford being in a relationship  Most times I freeze with anxiety everytime I stop to think about that. My 30s are right around the corner and I can't afford to eat a pizza 

Been trying to save makeup by only wearing it to go out so I don't run out of it and therefore I don't spend money... But I've been going through a SERIOUS identity crisis without my gal make lmao

Which is why I started this new blog... Blogging makes me feel more connected with gyaru and I was in serious need of feeling like myself again...  But I don't want it to be as polished as the other one, nor talk about cute and nice things, but to make it my diary, and hopefully no one will come across it unless I provide the link.

My life's been everything but cute these days. Yet I persist on living the pinkest life I can. The horrors are resilient but so am I 

Now I need to act like a damn adult and get those clothes off the line, it's been three days already